Sunday, May 05, 2019

Jan - 5 May 2019

Wow.

5 months have passed in this 2019 and I haven't even written any post.

If my last post was me wondering what I have been doing.. this post I know the answer!
I have been so busy travelling and having holiday LOL I really don't have the time to sit down and write my thoughts!

2019 has been crazy for me in terms of travelling!!

This year starts with my trip to Bali on 17-19 Jan..

Blue, Beach, Best Friend... Bali 🖤

22 to 23 Jan to Surabaya.. fun business trip though!

Found a mirror and we're like let's all try to get the best picture..

15 - 24 Feb to Switzerland
I wish I have the time to blog about this.. or at least, show off my pictures LOL
Switzerland was amazing!

It was freezing I look like a Teddy ready to be hugged

1 - 11 Mar to USA.. Get to see Grand Canyon and Horseshoe bend. Went to Vegas and Beverly Hills! Another amazing trip I'd love to show off my pictures as well hahaha.

One of my bucket list checked ☑

Korea Spring Trip

hahaha I super love this picture!! 

26 - 28 April to Singapore just to watch ED SHEERAN!!

Champion Twinning with the boyfie

and.. I actually just landed from Bali (again) today..



I will be heading to Germany and Prague next week!! WOOHOO!! and.. I just booked November ticket to KL to attend Tracy's wedding..

So in between this.. when I am in Jakarta, I usually take my time seriously for rest and work and meet up with friends. That's why I haven't really gotten so much time to do other things. I have to prioritize right.. and I realize blogging / writing isn't really much on my priority list. T_T

Still have to juggle my time for exercising (which has been abandoned for so long due) and taking care of Pumpkin. Not forgetting I have rarely watched Korean drama already nowadays..

I am so so so grateful. I have been so blessed with the chance of travelling to so many places. I am forever grateful for this!!

I also want to keep record of my birthday this year coz the love I received every year is more and more and more and I am just left speechless with all the love that I don't deserve. (I will try my best to post it lol)

Now that was sort of the summary of my early 2019 lol, will try my best to write another post later!

off now.





Sunday, November 11, 2018

Wah wah wah.

I just got the time to check my Pumpkin & The Glass Shoes again and realized I have been neglecting it for quite sometime. Poor baby.

I also realized I have been neglecting gym & run as well. Less than a month for 2xu but I haven't prepared myself at all!!!

And it's been a while since I went to serve in Sunday School.

THEN the big question popped up: What was I doing all this time?? Why was I so busy but seems like nothing has been done?? WTH.. hahahahahahaha

I probably had been too focused on myself ???? Being too caught up with this "unhappy" situation without getting anything done. Hahahaa. Time to get up, stop playing candy crush and get back to live my life!


Thursday, November 01, 2018

Unstructured

I am freaking tired.

Hahaha.

What kind of a starter is that. I know. But I am freaking tired. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. Damn.

I thought I figured life out on my 26th birthday??? At least that's what my blogpost said that time... I probably have jinxed it LOL.

I am in a mess right now lol.
FML.

And I really want to write this down so I hope few months from now when I have passed this season, I can read this and laugh at myself, then give myself a pat in the back for surviving this. hahahhaha.

The past 6 months have been a roller coaster for me. I am drained and saturated. I lost 6kgs since April. I question myself every single day.

It's really funny how I change so much in these 6 months. I miss those days when I was sooo happy and didn't give a damn on everything coz I was just so content with myself. lol. what th happened???

hahahaha

Just today, only today, morning I have product update in one of the business partner. Followed by lunch with another business partner. Then went to one of the distributors to celebrate his birthday. Continued with another discussion with another business partner with my regional alliance.

I have only checked my email when I was waiting to celebrate the distributor. But I am tired already lol.

Now I am in one of the restaurants in PIK for komsel. My cell leader is not available today so she asked me to take care of komsel today. In all honesty, I am freaking tired hahhaa. But then, I am suddenly so touched by the love of God. I have been complaining here and there with my current condition. I am sinful. I really think I don't deserve this. I don't think I deserve this chance to serve Him. T_T How could He still love me and allow me to take care of His children when I can't even take care of myself?

How is this possible?

I know this is so unstructured. lol.
What am I trying to say in this post I don't know lol.
My komsel friends are starting to come so bye for now lol.


Tuesday, August 14, 2018

My First 17.8KM Race

Yesterday I joined Titan Run 2018 and I signed up for 17.8km! LOL. During the two-hour running, like the usual, I think. Then this thought on how it's important to protect who we allow to surround us.

I usually joined the 10km race only. Yesterday 17.8km was my longest race and also longest run. The past month, I have been training consistently coz I was too afraid I would not be able to finish it.

Some people just have good faith in me and they believe I will be able to finish it. Heck, I was gonna register for 10km but a colleague pushed me to join the 17.8km coz he believed I can.

After consistent training in the past month, I now believe I can finish the 17.8km as well.

But then, there is a person who exceptionally believe in me and said I should be able to finish it before 2 hours. I was like, "what?? It's already good if I can finish it.."

Coz even during training, I have never ran that far, and usually my 2 hours will only achieve 16km. (and that also I felt like dying already ahhaha).

But he believes I can, even when I doubt myself. He said he's gonna help being my pacer. (and I still answered him: I am afraid I will disappoint you)

and then...:


With him being my pacer, I did the 17,8km below 2 hours time.



Look at the chip time.. 01:57:55 We basically overachieved the target!

I was amazed, he was proud. Then it strikes me hard that it really is important, the people we choose to put around us. If it's not because of him, I don't think I can make it. If it's not because of him, I don't think I can see what I am capable of and even achieving that.

I am so so so blessed and grateful for this experience. For him. For God's grace for giving me people like this. In my weakness of often doubting myself, there are people who believe in me and help me bringing out the best part of me.

Imagine if the people around is those who always say "Nah, I don't think you can do it." "I don't think it's possible" Then it will surely be not possible. Luckily that's not the case.

I hope I can be someone like him too! Believe in people's potential and bringing out the best part!


Bonus picture: that's my pacer in black shirt still looking ALL COOL and that's me on the right side.. looking like steamed crab LOL..


Wednesday, June 13, 2018

My Notable 10k Run

I ran 10k today! I cannot recall when was my last 10k. :( sad that I sort of ignored one of my hobbies. 

These days, I have been busy with my shoe line exhibition in Jakarta Fair. Since it's my office holiday, I take turn to look after the booth with my sis. All this time, she was the one handling it when I was working.

Yesterday was one of the days where I came and stand by there. It was raining and cold and not a lot of visitors and it made me realize (again) how I dislike just sitting there and I felt like I am not in my maximum potential. I feel very restless and tired and not getting the best. 

I came home very tired and decided to take a day off today. Bf suggested me to exercise and I was like, "but I am so tired"

He did not force me though.

However when I woke up this morning and looked at my gym clothes, I suddenly miss running. I decided that I wanna hit the gym today and run 10k at least!

It ain't easy!! I was feeling so sleepy and my friend asked if I just wanna go home? Another friend asked if I wanna join her hang out with another friend. I successfully said no and made it to the gym!

Still, it was not easy to hit 10k. When I was already 7k, I felt tired and thought of giving up.. but I have decided to hit 10k, so I continued. 

When I hit 8k, that thought came back but I have decided to hit 10k, so I continued. 

I remember in the morning, Andre messaged me talking about grit, and that same GRIT is what pushed me through.

When I hit 9k? Well, it's one more km, let's just finish it and so I did. Finish it. 10km today.

I felt so so so great afterwards. I know I will regret it if I stopped at 7k or 8k. Now that I did finish it, I felt very very good and it changed my mood drastically.

It reminds me again why I love running in the first place.

I dedicated this post to Andre. Thanks for reminding me to be gritty.