Saturday, March 31, 2012

Hope of All Hearts

Isn't it funny how something you expected not to disappoint you turns out turned you down, and something that you thought will not make you happy turns out made your day?

But then again, only HIM who will not disappoint me and His little count on every thing in my life is just adequate to make me smile. :)

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Leni is emo today.


I lied.
Today is a bad day. I woke up from some sort of weird dreams, errr I dreamed I was in the Hunger Games movie you knowww.. which I HAVEN'T EVEN WATCHED IT YET. LOL. This is all because of Traecy! Everyone told me that movie is super awesome except her, she told me it is scary, and I don't know why I listen to her more than others lol. So in my mind it's a very scary movie and in my dream it was a scary dream!

So I like almost go to that fight and risk my life or something like that.. which is scary.. and I woke up from that dream. Not a good thing to start my day.. and it got worse when I saw my bb.. *sigh* some not-so-good news are there and wanted news are not there..


Then I went to my first class today.. International Business.. The news that I heard about this lecturer are not so pleasant.. so I have this expectation that he really won't be good.

But surprisingly..

I like him!
How can I not?
Among all 4 lecturers that teach me this semester, he is the ONLY one that give us handouts! and it's not only subject overview.. he got notes, tutorial, and tutorial schedule.. and he even said that he is gonna give us the handouts every week.. which means we need not to print out notes every week... He is the first lecturer that I ever know wanna mafan himself do this! Thumbs up for him. hahaha.

I can be easily impressed huh?
Print lecture notes for me and I like him already lol.

Ok so he kinda made me happy a bit.. :p

And the other class today was not so bad too.. New Business Development.. But I was so sleepy during that class haha..

In between, I was so emo.. Like so many problems duh! and I got a bit tired of them.
Maybe I should just let my bb off and no one can find me.

So when I got back home, I decided to take a short nap.. what day can be so bad that it can't be fixed with a nap? well, it's today..

Woke up from nap, some other bad news also come.. actually maybe during normal days, i won't call it bad news.. but today i have enough bad things and was hoping for some good things.. but well, today says different! T_T

I forgot I saw from who..

Hahahahahahahahaha. I super like this! :p So now I decided to keep calm and go shopping. ONLINE SHOPPING!! teeheeee!

Still looking around in Scrop and Crop whether I can find nice kits or Zalora.. looking around for nice stuffs.. bahahahahaha.. You know the saying "money can't buy happiness"? well guess what.. there is another saying "those who say that just simply don't know where to shop.." LOLL.

End of the story!
Started it bad but I am gonna close it GOOD. I DON'T CARE.


Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Graduate Soon! :p

I am sort of free now, finished and submitted my internship report.. and now I have nothing to do.. =x
So I decided I wanna write something... problem is I don't know what to write.. failed blogger XD

I seriously have no idea what to write.. hahaha

maybe about series?
I used to like gossip girl and 90210 very much.. like waiting for it to be aired every week.. but I don't know where that feeling went now.. lol, 3 month internship I did not download a single of them.. reason being I was too tired every time I reached home, did not even bother to on my laptop haha..

So last week.. it's was my break rite, before this last semester starts.. (oh yea, I have already started my last semester today.. get back to this later) I downloaded all of the episodes of gossip girl, 90210, himym, desperate housewives that I haven't watched for the pass 3 months.

I watched all the himym and desperate housewives..
when I opened 90210.. 10 mins after that I closed it again.. what is wrong with me? LOL.
I used to love that series man! Now not even bother to watch it -.-

I think I got bored with the stories which keeps going on round and round.. relationship.. break up.. relationship with another friend.. break up again lol.. and good boy become bad boy.. in this case I mean LIAM. He is so cute that he can't turn to be a bad boy!! =(( :p

Okay enough of all these non sense lol..
There are a lot of movies I wanna watch!!!

I love romance ♥

But with Frank in Indonesia, don't know who to ajak to watch with me.. well there are Traecy and Indria,, but Indria doesn't like this kind of movie hahaha.. supposedly we go today! but me being monthly sick ruined our plan. =((

I wanna watchhhhhhhhhh!! I know I am so late coz it should be on Feb, but not my fault! Just saw this in the cinema hahaha..

Anyways, talking about me starting my school again..
Yeps, today is my first day of my very last semester. YIPPIE!
And I can't believe when I sat there in class, I actually missed working :)) :P

Timetable is pretty awesome.. Monday and Friday off!! Can't get any better than this! And actually me and Indria were talking about this.. like how cool if we have monday and friday off.. so no monday blues and weekend starts from friday.. and who knows it comes true LOL.. SUPER LONG WEEKEND!! Love it!

Gonna or NEED TO study smart/hard to get my marks up and this is like my last chance if I really want that first class.. hahaha.. PRAY FOR ME! =P

OH! March is gonna end soon! My bday is coming.. so fast le! Gonna leave my teenage life d.. =((  no more "teen" in my age.. sad.. hahaha..
Hopefully my 20th bday will be an awesome one.. and blessed one.. and memorable :D
please be awesome in welcoming me to the world 20!
and it is gonna be the third year I spend my bday not in my home..
but nvm! this is my second home ;)

OK guess this post is long enough lol
oh oh 1 more thing!!
My presentation pic is on my lecturer's blog! LOL

I stole my pic. :P
Here it is!

So blurrr =(
Come and visit his blog: As I See It

Time to do other things.. haha
I wanna watch Running Man but internet is slow they don't let me stream!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Taeyang - I Need a Girl




No, I am not really a fan of Big Bang :))
I just like this song :P
How i wish they make one entitled PINK.

Big Bang - Blue

Gyeouri gago bomi chajaojyo urin sideulgo
Geurium soge mami meongdeureotjyo

(i'm singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i'm singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh

Gateun haneul dareun got neowana wiheomhanikka
Neoegeseo ddeonajuneun geoya
Nimiran geuljae jeomhana bigeobhajiman
Naega motna sumneun geoya
Janinhan ibyeoreun sarangui mallo
Geu eoddeon maldo wiro dwel suneun eobtdago
Ama nae insaengui majimak mello
Magi naeryeo-oneyo ije

Tae-eonaseo neol mannago jugeul mankeum saranghago
Parake muldeureo sirin nae maeum
Nuneul gamado neol neukkil su eobtjanha

Gyeouri gago bomi chajaojyo urin sideulgo
Geurium soge mami meongdeureotjyo

(i'm singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i'm singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh

Simjangi meojeun geot man gata jeonjaengi ggeutnago
Geu gose eoreo buteun neowana
Nae meorissok saegyeojin trauma i nunmul mareumyeon
Chokchokhi gieokhari nae sarang
Gweropjido oeropjido anha haengbogeun da honjatmal
Geu isange bokjaphan geon mot chama
Daesurobji amureojido anha
Byeolsueobtneun banghwang saramdeureun watda ganda

Tae-eonaseo neol mannago jugeul mankeum saranghago
Parake muldeureo sirin nae maeum
Neoneun ddeonado nan geudaero itjanha

Gyeouri gago bomi chajaojyo urin sideulgo
Geurium soge mami meongdeureotjyo

Oneuldo paran jeo dalbicharae-e na hollo
Jami deulgetjyo
Ggumsogeseodo nan geudaereul chaja
Hemaeimyeo i noraereul bulleoyo

(i'm singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i'm singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh
(i'm singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i'm singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh

The winter had passed
And the spring has come
We have withered
And our hearts are bruised from longing

(i’m singing my blues)
Used to the blue tears, blue sorrow
(i’m singing my blues)
The love that i have sent away with the floating clouds, oh oh

Under the same sky, at different places
Because you and i are dangerous
I am leaving you

It’s cowardly but i’m hiding because i’m not good enough
Cruel breakup is like the end of the road of love
No words can comfort me
Perhaps my lifetime’s last melodrama
Now its final curtain is coming down
I was born and i met you
And i have loved you to death
My cold heart that has been dyed blue
Even with my eyes closed, i can’t feel you

The winter had passed
And the spring has come
We have withered
And our hearts are bruised from longing

(i’m singing my blues)
Used to the blue tears, blue sorrow
(i’m singing my blues)
The love that i have sent away with the floating clouds, oh oh

I feel like my heart has stopped beating
You and i, frozen there, after a war
Trauma, that has been carved in my head
Once these tears dry up, i will moistly remember my love
I’m neither painful nor lonely
Happiness is all self-talk
I can’t stand something more complicated
It’s no big deal, i don’t care
Inevitable wandering, people come and go
I was born and i met you
And i have loved you to death
My cold heart that has been dyed blue
Even if you have left, i’m still here

(i’m singing my blues)
Used to the blue tears, blue sorrow
(i’m singing my blues)
The love that i have sent away with the floating clouds, oh oh

Again tonight, underneath that blue moonlight
I will probably fall asleep alone
Even in my dreams, i look for you
And wander around while singing this song

(i’m singing my blues)
Used to the blue tears, blue sorrow
(i’m singing my blues)
The love that i have sent away with the floating clouds, oh oh

March Bday Girls

Soooo many bdayss in March!!

My besties in Indonesia as well as my besties here! =DD
Used to celebrate their bday in Indonesia.. but now I can't join them =(

So I steal denny's pic :p

They're having fun and I envy them =(((

Couldn't celebrate their bday but I still can celebrate my friends' bday here :))

Shelvy's bday :))
We came to her house and surprised her! :)

 We know how much she loves macaroons!

 Pretty mother and daughter :))

Shelvy's bday dinner @ Thai Thai Sunway Pyramid

FOOD!!!! :D:D

 Gotta tell you that this fish from Thai Thai Restaurant is super yummy! I don't know what the name is XD

and this thai ice tea also tastes so good! hahaha, a bit like teh tarik but not as sweet as teh tarik :D

Thennnnn yesterday we celebrated my lovely daughter in Christ's bday :P:P JENNY!


I simply love birthdays :)
Your once a year special day..
Happy bday all!! XOXO.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Tribute to high school :))

If only writing a report is as easy as writing a blog post..(not so easy also though)

2 nights in a row had dinner with Jenny, who is currently studying in Sunway International School grade 10. Yes she is 5 years younger than me :) realise how old i am now? T_T

She shared about her high school life that makes me miss mine too.. haha, a lot of memorable stuffs, classes, friends, teachers :)) I miss them indeed! :))

When we were young, hang out all the time, chat all the time, watch movie all the time.. good times :))

I remember I took A LOT of pictures with my bestie, Michelle :)

Miss those times!!!
Hahahaha, so many pics of me and Michelle :)) love her max!
The one and only, my narsismate lol.. She's the only one who dares to comment about me lol, if I had bad hair, ugly fringe, pimples, stupid things that I did.. she will speak up :) and I love her bcoz of that! I told her everything, she told me everything, typical bff :) now that we're apart sad to not have narsis partner anymore :p and hard to tell alllll stuffs, but we sure catch up when we can :) actually we need to.. miss u!!

High school to me was all about fun.. LOL.. lots of stress moments but I guess I already erased those parts, I only remember all the fun side hahahaha.. We celebrated A LOT of people's bday..

Ok, I am too lazy to find and upload all the pics.. hahaha.. yea bad blogger..

And I remember we watched a lot of movies.. sometimes we can just go right from school to watch movie 2 hours, and come back to school for tutorial hahaha =)

Also our class representatives were all from our gang lol...
Chairman was Ivan 'pancang' - the image of a 'ban zhang' is already on him, can't get rid of it hahaha
Vice was CS opa =)
Secretaries were pretty Evelyn & Teddy - yep, Teddy has very neat handwriting hahaha :))
and myself as the Treasurer :)
We most of the time ruled the class hahaha..
Oh and I remember actually not all was fun.. there were times when we had problems, like serious problem related to teachers and stuffs, and it can get all messy.. but I don't wanna remember bad stuffs :D so let's skip that part.

During high school also was the time when I got to know a lot of other friends.. from other friends... and friends.. hahaha, I was so social! Now well, time to focus I guess :))
I remember I was introduced to Cung2's gang.. Dani, David, Ben, etc.. and their brothers sisters.. Amel, Vidia, then there's one I forgot the name.. Jouko, Joseph.. and some others I also forgot..... too long d din contact them.. only some still in my bbm lists..
And got to know Tati's friends.. Cen, Ricard, Ricky.. and Ryan.. :))
Then Honey introduced me to her friends too.. Memed, then.. Johny my bro's friend, Adit, and one more.. forgot the name.. I am so old, poor memory =(((
And most of the time I dragged Michelle to accompany me hahahahaha...

It's funny when I remember I got to know a lot of people and used to be closed with them.. but now we just don't keep in touch anymore.. (memang gue sombong sih haha sorry ya friends)

But those precious ones are still in my heart :))
Michelle and Honey :)


All of them!!

High school really bestttttttt :D

And not forgetting love life! Hahaha, high school was one of those best times having fun having crush etc.. hahahahahahaha.. and maybe some haters too, but who cares lol.

When Jenny told me about her love life now, it digs up my memories :))

Talking about love life in high school..
I have a story that my colleague, Rhodora said usually this kind of thing happens only in high school.. lol who knows it happens to me during my internship?

My last 2 days doing internship, I got notes from someone I don't know.. or maybe actually I know, but I don't know who left them in my table after lunch..

I got this on Thursday.. and I thought someone I know dropped this for me coz the next day is my last day.. Who knows I ask those that can be suspected all and they said they were not the one who left it for me..
I thought maybe the person just don't wanna tell.. I didn't think so much, I was just so happy and touched that from my 3months there, I actually brighten up someone's day.. hahhaa :)

Till I got another one on Friday..
Same handwritten and notes.. again no name so I don't know who.. but he/she actually does know that I love pink =)) and notice that he/she wrote "blessed day"! not "nice day".. made me even more touched haha.. And it made every one so curios lol, Rhodora even went to security control to check whether we can see the person left the message.. Well, I personally want to know who did this, but I didn't check..

I have several reasons:
- It was my last day and already after lunch, I was busy cleaning up my place, making sure I already sent all docs to Ming, and I must return all the stuffs before 4.. not much time to go and check 2 hours cctv tape..
- I can check if I feel scared.. which I hmm.. don't think I am.. since he/she only left me notes and sweet notes somemore, not threatening notes hahaha.. well if he/she was following me all the time then I will be scared...
- He/she did not left his/her name which means he/she also didn't want me to know who he/she is..?
- I don't wanna ruin the sweetness of the notes hahaha.. :D

Anyway, thanks to you who left them in my table..

Anywayss, I am so grateful, so many new and exciting things happened in my life :)
Can't wait what tomorrow will bring :) Hope it's a good one :D

Guess this post stops here.. I need to sleep duh, back to reality that I have a presentation and a report waiting for me.. :( and stop admiring my memories lol..
Signing off!
Good night :)

Monday, March 12, 2012

No more internship..

Hello all!
I am in the middle of doing my internship report, and dang! I am so sleepy -.-

Thinking why not I update my blog.. since I wanna do it like since dont know when, but I was too lazy lol.
(I actually already have drafts [with s, which means more than 1 draft!] but never finish them -.-)
I wanna update about my internship! It finally ends. =(((((
Super sad.
I never thought I will be soooooooooo sad when internship ends. Haha.
Me and Traecy used to think that internship will be so scary!
But guess what! Both of us cried LOL. We're just too sad to leave the company.. :')
I am so sad. My place was the best I can ask for!

Great teammate, great supervisor, great bosses, great colleagues, great intern friends.

What more could I ask?

Time to share about my internship!
If you know how hard it was for me to get my internship placement? lol, went through 3 interviews, being rejected by 1, and was put in a hard position to choose where I should go. 1 is fine, everything is going to be ok, but I know my heart was not there. Another 1 is unsure, long process to get me in, but I know I want to be a part of it. Then now I know, I got the best one, the right one, which was not the one I WANT, but exactly the one I NEED. God really knows the best ♥.

Learn a lot of new things here in IBM, get to have many new experiences, and new people!
Yes it is not easy as I need to wake up so early every day, go back quite late.. like no life lol.. lucky thing 1u is just next door :p
And sometimes the things that you do are things that other people don't wanna do, that's why give to u :P
which are very repetitive, painful for eyes, and boring hahaha.. well that' sometimes..

Most of the time I am having fun :D:D
Never knew working can be so fun hahaha..
You know, get to move here and there, not just stuck at your table, get to attend different2 things, meetings, discussions, trainings, get to observeeeeeee a lot of things. Pretty fun for me! =))

made some new friends :)

met Joee & Pris :)

and Boon, Cynthia, Pris :)

met the boys at the back :D

met Ieqaaa ♥ pretty and sweet receptionist :)

and my great team :)

Well, actually met some others too but no pics :D

Saturday, March 10, 2012

The forgotten cork board

Found this when I was going through my sem1 stuffs hahaha.. This is a board that I made for Rendez-vous pre-christmas gathering.. so we're having a cute competition to make our profile for the leader to keep.. and this is mine.. and i won lol.. i got a rendezvous tshirt :)) never thought that i would actually win! i think i have a post about this somewhere in my blog haha but nvm, feel like posting again since i just found this :)

To think of that, i was pretty creative huh?
where did it go!! XD

yes this is the post hahahaha

Monday, March 05, 2012

How to Stop Complaining

Sharing is caring, right? :))
Got this article while doing my project. Edited a little but credits still go to the owner.

Hope this helps! =)

How to Stop Complaining
(training myself too :D)

1. Contest?
Recognize the following situation?
You are talking with a group of colleagues and someone starts complaining about the heavy traffic. Other people will start trying to top the last complaining (“What I went through this morning was way worse than that!”.)

Instead of joining in this contest of complaining, sit back and observe, and don’t try to change other people. If possible, try to steer the conversation on to a different subject. There are ways to keep a conversation going without complaining. ;)

2. Stick to the Facts
All this doesn’t mean that you can’t point out if something is not right. In that case, just stick to the facts. If you just ordered hot soup and it is served cold, you can make that clear to the waiter. But there are several ways to do this. If you complain about it (“How dare you to serve me cold soup?”) you probably made your point, but will it motivate the waiter the do a better job the next time food is served? Probably not. If you stick to the facts (“This soup is cold, could you please warm it up?”), you made your point with respect towards the waiter.

3. Gossip
No complaining also means no gossiping. You can still talk about others. But when talking about others, only say something when you can say something positive. And only say something you would also have said (in those exact words) if that person was with you in the room right now. If you can’t say something nice about someone else, then don’t say anything.

One of the main reasons for gossiping or complaining is to make us look better by comparing us to someone else. That’s bragging and no one likes people who brag. Furthermore, you wouldn’t notice ‘faults’ in others if you didn’t recognize those same points in yourself.

4. Be the Change
You might feel tempted to stop other people from complaining, but that’s no use. You can’t change someone else, only yourself. People change because they want to change. The best way to inspire change is to practice what you preach. Be the change you want to see in the world. You cannot treat others better than you treat yourself.

Little Activity
Get a wristband, and wear it in one of your hand. Move it to the other hand every time you complain. See how many times you complain each day, and try to reduce it gradually! Have fun!

You won't understand this.

It comes back.
And it scares me.

I never thought "it" will come back to me. Never.
It was just a fine day, and I never saw it coming. No. No feeling at all.
In my mind it is just as the same as others. I didn't expect any surprise, and never had. Maybe never wanted, too.

But again. Nobody knows. Nobody knew that it will come back to me.
I know I said I sorta missed it, but that was like, some time ago, and it is not supposed to be from that day. Not from this.

It went away from me a long time ago. I did try to catch it back, but, I guess the time was just wrong.

Not so sure what I should do.
Or actually I know what I should do, but I just do not want to do it.

What will be the best decision?
Well, I know what. But it is just hard. While you are enjoying it. It is very hard to let it go just like that.

I know. Time.
Surely time will help to heal anything. Right?

My mind is going here and there. Trying to find anything to let me keep it yet run away from it.

It is dangerous yet I enjoy it.
It drives me crazy yet it makes me smile.

I will not do anything. Nope.
I will let the time do it for me. I believe time knows more.

Future me, I hope you smile when you read this again, and not regret it.