Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Control Your Anger and Express It Differently

Why does such feeling like "angry" exist?

Today, just now, an angry old lady just called and scolded me. (I assume she is old since she scolds like an old auntie).

She called me two minutes just to scold me for something she had done wrong.
She had done something in an incorrect way. She submitted. I was asked to check. I checked. I found out there's a mistake. I told. About half an hour later I got a phone call. I was scolded.

She was mad. And her scoldings make me mad. She was scolding me for something not even in my control. And it was her mistake. People. Sigh.

I was trying to chill, or more to ignorance. I didn't talk to her loudly like the way she talked to me. I didn't reply her back with her tone. I didn't say such hurtful words like the words she used.

I didn't.

Instead, I was sort of being nice I think. For a start. Until she kept scolding me. So I turned into ignorance. And she scolded me to for being ignorance. Hahaha. Don't know what this aunty wants.

She then hung up the phone when I no longer said any word. Because I think whatever I say, she will keep scolding me and the stuffs she said ain't that nice.

She hung up.

I was mad. I feel like emailing her and her bosses and everyone and ask her to apologize to me.  For the things she had said. For her own mistake. And also to thank me because I helped her. I was angry, too.

But I didn't do that.

I tried my best to control whatever I could have done that perhaps won't be nice, either.

Instead, I talked to my colleague whom had asked me to check and she talked to her boss. Her boss talked to her. I guess case closed then.

However, as I write this, I am thinking, why was she so mad angry crazy piss off like that, while it was her own mistake and the correction was for her own goodness for God's sake.

Why does angry exist and why can't some people control their anger and end up hurting people?

I was hurt. I forgive her but it's just that it ain't easy to forget what she had said.

Why didn't she think what could have happen if I take whatever she says not for granted? How if I start banging my head to the wall? How if I send cockroaches to her workstation? How if I am angry enough I fly all the way to find her and cut her hair to bald? How if I am stressed out and I OD drink too much coke? How if I go to the mall and shop like mad? How? How? Tell me howwwwwwwww?

She's lucky I didn't do that.

But to entertain myself, I'd like to think why she did that. I think she had a panic attack. Maybe this is her is her first time making mistake, and she was so panicked even she could make a mistake. Or maybe she had always made a lot of mistakes and she was so angry at herself that she made another one and bored of scolding herself, she scolded me. Or maybe she has just nothing to do and she thought it would be fun to just randomly scold me. Or maybe that's the only way she knows to talk, loud, full of rage, and she had no good vocabulary. Or maybe she is just merely crazy and the only way to heal her is to scold people. Poor her.

But it's so obvious she felt insecure. After all she had just made a mistake, and probably she will get scolded for that mistake.

I admire her boyfriend (if she has one) if he could survive her.

I wanted to advise her to find other way to express her anger in other ways rather than scolding an innocent cute girl like me :p, but I am afraid she would scold me again so I just write them here not hoping she will find it though haha.

Anyway, in my very humble opinion, she could do other things without harming others, for example:

1. Do charity
I think this is a very good idea. Whenever she feels like scolding people, she should just take out her wallet and give some money to those who need or just random people. Or she could buy random people useful things. She is angry and she gave money to little girl on the side of the road "I am so angry I feel like giving you money!!" Brilliant idea. She could express her feeling without hurting others, instead she makes other people happy! Wow!

2. Just cry.
She could just cry and cry and cry. If she is mad for her own mistake, and afraid she would get scold, she should just cry. People will pity her lahh, cry already, won't scold her wan. But if she scolds especially for her own mistake, high chance she will get double scoldings. So she should just cry. Maybe she will be lucky enough (like me) to get a free burger coz I cry when I was once angry. Or the least, she will get tissue. And this is not harming anyone. Nope.

3. Start a blog.
Another good idea! She should just write a post every time she is angry. Like what I am doing. Just start a blog! Maybe if she is angry enough, she could even be famous for her anger posts? Angry birds also can be so famous. Why not she becomes angry aunty? Create a blog full of creative anger expression. I think she could be as famous as Xiaxue (maybe).

4. Paint or Draw
Or if she couldn't write, she could think of painting or drawing. Hmm, maybe she can be a famous painter too? You know, when she is angry, she could throw away all the colors (like what Katy Perry did) and make an abstract painting. Who knows there are some people out there find her paintings to be very artistic. Let me give her an example of my anger drawing.


5. Go to Malaysia and play smash bottle.

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The founder of this place is very brilliant!!~~ Nah go to this link: SmashHouse and they are currently having promotion at Groupon. Go grab now! Nice idea right!!

See!  I could find five better options to do when she is angry rather than scolding. My ideas could bring joy to other people, make her get free burger, give profit to smash house owner, and best of all, ain't harming anyone!

I am so brilliant. You're welcome.

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

Collete and Lola

Ce Monce was in town ^_^ few days ago lol. She came on a one day trip to Jakarta and we had a meet up :D

As can be seen in the above picture, we met up in Collete & Lola, on Saturday. Apparently it was a 'happening' place ahaha. Located in Senopati. So I drove all the way from North Jakarta to South Jakarta, like I always do on weekdays. Saturday is usually better, less jam. But I was out of luck that day, there was a truck stuck on the toll. T_T Made me late half an hour.

Collete and Lola was a cute place. It was my first time there and I didn't quite know the place before. I looked up at map before I left home and it was quite easy. I remember the shop located on my left (I came from Sudirman). So there I went and when almost reached the place, I kept looking at the left side of the road and apparently it was located on the right side and I almost missed the place! Luckily I took a glance to the right side of the road and I have passed it a bit. It was crowded and I was thinking how I turned back 'till the parking guy came and asked me whether I wanted to go to the restaurant (on the left side) and I said I wanna go to Collete and Lola which is on the right side *I pointed out to the place. Then he said, ok, just park here *he pointed at a side a bit behind me and I no need to do a u turn! I then asked whether I can really park there and he said yea yea what matters most is the safety! I was wowed by him! So he helped me giving guidance while I parked.

Finish parking, I need to cross the road right and I repeat it was crowded. THEN another parking guy in front of Collete and Lola, knowing I wanted to go there *I think it was written in my face lol*, he crossed the road and fetched me OMO!! He came to me and said let me help you to cross the road. So I crossed safely and easily with him stopping all the cars hahaha.

I was like wah, so good these people!! It felt so nice to have nice and kind people around! I felt angels are around me ^_^ and He was saying "Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous"


Happily and blessed, I went inside to meet my beloved ce Monce. She was with ko Niko and their friend. After I reached, ko Niko and his friend left to see other things in other place, to give me quality time with ce Monce hahaha.

It's good to see her again ^_^ we talked and update each other. Never mind what we talked about, we tried the cake there, Lollipop and another one I don't know the name. =p

When I came, the cakes were already there lol, took this pic from their website and can't find the other one. I am not a fan of cake though haha. I am too sweet to eat sweet stuffs :p :p :p but this Lollipop taste good. It has the popping sweet inside!! Surprise surprise!

They also sell big pretty cakes!

Lego cakes!

Short bread!

Cupcakes (board) lol

Creative greeting cards!

They have this a little bit space decorated nicely which I THINK it's supposed for people to take picture lol.

So we took a picture there too! =D

Life can be bitter so

Ciao! =D

Sunday, October 06, 2013

Selca with cute pose

#justforfun #nothingtodo #justdownloadedcomicapp #appcalledhalftone #halftone #selcameansselfcaptured #justignoremyface #happysunday

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

I Better Take Care

I fall sick. Again. :(

I don't know what's wrong with me haha, yesterday morning, when I woke up and wanted to get ready to go to work, I suddenly felt not good at all. I started to have stomachache and the urge to vomit. And I vomited for a few times. T_______T Then I had an empty stomach so mom cooked porridge for me and I ate and also took medicine. Then I went to take a rest again and woke up to vomit everything I had eaten again T_T together with the medicine T_T

Then I went to work. On my way to work I also did not feel so good. I drank water to make me feel better. Reached office and I vomited again lol. All the water I had drank. All... T_____T

Then I had an empty stomach, feeling hungry, went to lunch, before lunch I vomited once again. It's like everything inside my body came up haha. I had no energy and had porridge for lunch but my body still didn't feel so well. Around 3 I asked permission to go home, and reached home, everything I had during lunch all came up... T_____T

So I went to see doctor at night..
I feel so terrible. Headache, can't eat, the only thing I can eat is porridge but even porridge I vomit it all, all my body is so painful, no energy, stomachache. Terrible. T____T

I don't know how come I become like this. Previous day I ate indomie though but I have never been like this just because I eat indomie. In fact, I had never been like this before in Malaysia. But this is my second time I vomit everything I eat since I am working (first time was around 3 months ago).

Many possibly reasons I can think of.. but I guess I am getting old lol. Can't simply eat things.. must take care of my body huhu. (But I always take care!! :p)

I am feeling better though now, as I can blog already haha.. But mom doesn't let me go to work today and I am so sad coz we have an event today and I was really looking forward to the event and now I can't join coz I am sick. T___________T

Imma take rest again so I can go to work again tomorrow!
Take care people. Don't be like me. It doesn't feel good.